Yes. So im on again because i keep writing songs and i wanted to say something without breakin into a chorus :) Watching fresh prince, hearing pharell right now.. Just got done dyin over jamie foxxs new video, ha... Aw.

I was talkin to a friend today about who i think has major swag in the world of famousness, haha. Jamie i think is on that list. But i really wish he would go back to the days he that he sang!

Had more id drama today, that was fun and not embarassing at all :)

im about to get back to writing.. I love my friends. My couch. My life and ohhhhh my gosh commercial for children with cancer, oh goodness :( Life is great and i cant take things for granted and i have to speak things into exsitence... :) I hope everyone is well, mama need song writing and sweet, dreamy sleep.

love you,
love, me

mariel.

Stress.

UGH!

Whyyyy I am not on top of the simplest things, I do not knowww.
And why haven't I heard from you... (Reba McIntire circa '98)

mariel.

That car? Mama likey. Today was interesting... I started by waking up from a really bad dream, which reminds me: i love everyone! Even though J is being really loud and i an resisting the strangling of his neck ;) Really.

i can't find my birth certificate, so that's really bad.... And some friends of mine are acting really weird. On a better note, some OTHER friends of mine are being really good at their jobs :)

im so tired yet i always want to get on here and type to myself! what kinda....

love you,
love, me

mariel.

One of my favorite things in life is when people surprise me. I like things that are unexpected or unusual and i (usually) enjoy when people prove me wrong! i like to learn, haha, especially about people. Hung out with YM again and had a really good time.... Spent a day with J and i think that was pretty healthy, we did a LOT of talking about life and duties and sins and sweets. With all the crazy dreams i have been having lately, i just hope all my little people are happy and safe!

I cleaned so much today! It feels really good..... But now i don't know where anything is :/

love you,
love, me

mariel.

Winnin.

I am so proud of myself lately :) I have never written such yucky poppy stuff day after day like this and I'm lovvving it. I'm going to Utah soon to sing at this underage, bride-with-baby wedding. That shouldn't be awkward at all.... I just hope nobody cries if I sing love songs. Or yells at me.

Wrote a song called Hollywood last night that I am dying over. Been listening to The Jakes, Chic Gamine, Young Murph, Hey Monday and Busta, haha. And Hey Moon by Panic! At the Disco, plus Bounce by The Cab plus Superhuman by Chris Brown & Keri Hilson.

I have never been to Hollywood.

love you,

love, me

mariel.

Last Night

Haha... Ahhhhhhman. Life is a triiip! I love it :) I have such good people in my life and it's really hard not to be amazed and enamored by them all. And the situations I get myself into are.... great. In such a bad way!

But great.

love you,

love, me

mariel.

last day @ journeys

Nostalgia

Aw!!! Yes, cover of LDS newspaper :) Haha...




love you,
love, me

mariel.

Bed Of Burdens

Hiiiyaaa. R texted me after like 2 weeks! Weird... nice, though. K called me last night but that was just to get something that he needed, haha.... and then I let myself text YM and M and I still want to let some other friends know that they're missed but it's not too serious. I love my friends. Love life. Love that I just got offered a publishing deal. Love that I'm too stubborn and creatively emotional and greedy to want to let any of my songs go! What a dumb little meee.

There's only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time...

I work again tomorrow ughhhhh. Today was a nice ease back in comparison to how the past week has been! I wrote some quality things today. Wrote a craaazy rap, haha. I would like to borrow Fiona Apple's brain for just a day... and Brandy's voice. And Matt Reagan's entire self.

love you,
love, me.

mariel.

Beauty In The Gutter

I wish I could tell you how much I appreciate my gut! There are so many times in life when I find myself doing things for no apparent reason, rhyme, or sense... and they always come back to me later with a bigger purpose than I would have understood at the time, and then that reminds me that I'm progressing in some way, haha. Love this.. I love finding things out about people and, in turn, finding things out about myself.

For some reason, I've had a lot of prayers/dreams lately that are telling me a lotttt of tests are coming. A lot of.. help him, help her, help them; be the bigger person and help relieve the weights; appreciate my own quality and fight the things that tempt me to be less.

A LOT of "I miss you"s want to leave my text outbox lately, but they haven't. I don't know why! It's a good feeling to be missed and I don't know exactly why I wouldn't want my kiddos to feel that from me, but secretly maybe I want to be missed? Or I don't want them to know I need them?

...I'll never let this go

But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you...

love you,

love, me.

mariel.