Thursday, November 20, 2008

Raw

Little girl
A Little hurt
Rubbed a little raw inside

No change
She's outraged
Rubbed a lot of stones outside

Wished on stars
Tossed out coins
Pulled on sticks and bones

Played their tricks
The bossy little boys
Now she's washing off scars, and so

Little girl
A Little hurt
Turned a little tough outside

The abuse doesn't stray
She's built of remains
Waiting to thaw, too raw to cry


love you,
love, me

mariel.

Monday, November 10, 2008

In Time

So.... sleepy. Sitting at Oakwoods not in F102 and its a little street and unfamiliar, imnotgonnalie. Listening to Leona Lewis and getting slightly jealous buttt that's ok. Healthy, i think. Work is funny! Got promoted and ummm I think im making more but i don't know yet... it would only make sense, right?

New boy is tripping me out a bit. We can call him FIDM. I think i secretly want to live his life after i finish getting my Grammys and such :)

Q is back at his house and its kind of weird but he keeps having me come through and we still haven't worked on any music so my little heart is sinking in relation to our band.

M i out in NY killing songs, Im sure.. Not talking to him is poop. N and YM are out here though and they are fun to take the mind of that 2am type thing......

Just a side note.... Whatever music I am listening to making me lose all focus and feel a little funny inside. I want SUGAR now please...

Wowww this is really my life.

love you,
love, me

mariel.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Wowww.

So, I'm at the DMV finally registering my car to California. I forgot to write my name on something so I waited for one of the windows next to me to open up and I stood to ask the man if i could borrow a pen. Mind you, there was a pen sitting right on the counter in front of me, but considering the fact that it was wired to his desk, I figured I should ask. He just looks at me, reaches up and scoots the pen away from where I'm standing. I look at him and he now won't make eye contact with me!

"Sir, do you not have a pen that I can borrow? I just need to sign this really quickly."

He looks past me. I look at his name plate which says .

"Sir, do you speak English? Are you Filipino? Nagsasalita ba kayo ng Tagalog?"

And then he looks! And then he looks past me and goes, "You need to make room for my customers." The counter is least 3 feet wide. His last customer left just before our happy little convo had begun and even after turning around to look, I saw no rush of any ticket holders running to Window 18. Dude had no customers.

"OK, that's fine."

Um, now some lady seems to think I'm part of the back rest included on the chairs. And she's speaking Tagalog.

The DMV + Filipino people seems to not be a very good combo.

B 229 was just called, I'm one away from escaping this frustration of a place :)

love you,
love me.

mariel.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Week


For Halloween I was a ref and I rocked the illest wig everrr. So sick. I really would like to make my hair white but it would probably all fall out before even touching blonde, haha.

R is a sweet kid, I think. He's gettin' his respect from me, so far ;) Good guy.

Q moved back and painted his room my dream red. A little disappointing, but it's ok cuz I'm not allowed to paint my walls anyyyway. LAME!

Um, there are people out in the street being ridiculous levels of loud and I'm doing my best to not yell at them...

Aldo offered me a job, again. I don't know what to do, again. I need to just not be working retail at ALL, that is the goal omy I completely forgot: I met Demi Lavato at work, haha. I was very embarrassed. Not that there was anything to be embarrassed about, like working at a shoe store or looking like a scrub or getting really hot and developing a little excite-sheen. Nothing like that. She's a sweetheart, her aunt as well, and she is so, so talented. Her aunt, I don't know about but I'm sure whatever she does, she does well, haha.

If I stay awake much longer I will be assassinating the midnight peace-disturbers..

love you,
love, me

mariel.

Down From Super


That yellow thing is the machine that my daddy fixes at work. Crazyyy, no?

I miss him.

love you,
love, me

mariel.