Looking Forward

Tomorrow is my day off!! Yesssss. But, I do have to go into work and have a little convo about how I'm pretty sure the n word is nottt to be used in the work place and that I am not ok with its reoccurring role in our back room. So... there is still work to be done :( Also, I feel really funny saying the n word. And right now I don't even mean the actual n word itself, but just the little.. phrase, "n word," haha. Awkward.

Talked to N today for like two minutes and that was all that I needed to remember how chill he is. Ah.. deffffinitely appreciate him.

What I do not appreciate, is the fact that none of my pictures (one of which has a blooper that is the little accent to this here entry.) are wanting to load on up to photobucket or myspace :( Hmmmm. We shall figure this out at Q's tomorrow and hopefully I can just load them from his place as he loads fruity loops into his computadora. Will write again manana...

love you,
love, me

mariel.

Long Distance

With you is where I'd rather be
But we're stuck where we are
This long distance is killin' meeeeeeee.

Oh, blog. I want to leave this little California right now. Good thing I'm going home soon! Hopefully that will fulfill my little need-a-vaca feeling............ If only I coulda done that while freakin M was in freakin Utah for Christmas OH that woulda been too much, haha. SO sick.

My brain is back to writing and I'm so so so so so happy. My voice is getting up more and more every day and I'm loving the things I'm coming up with and being able to do and oh singing i am your wife.

mama sleepy.

love you,
love, me.

mariel.

Get Stupid

Work tomorrow at 8am. Fuuun!

i have to call Aldo i have to call Aldo i have to.

i didn't work today but i also didn't do any laundry :( i have kiiind of been thinking about someone all day and it's been..... different. i can't figure out what exactly is going on in my brain, haha. Hm..........................

I went to breakfast with R today and that was pretty chill. He, too, tried to feed me (fidm) and i just do nottt get it :/

I have been thinking about the 27 Club lately. That whole concept is insane to me..... I'm wondering if that is really a huge coincidence or if it's only found because it's looked for. Like, if i were to look for all the basketball players who ever died in December, or the number of girls with my name who died on a weekend, haha, what would i find? Crazy things, maybe. I wonder if the musicians who start to gain their fame at 24 ever really wonder about the list. I hope its just a coincidence... :)

I started 3 songs today and im really proud. Now i just have to get to finishing themmm..

love you,
love, me

mariel.

I Thought

I thought I'd write tonight
I thought it'd be easy

'Cuz writing is the easiest hardest worst best realest when you feel it

love you,
love, me

mariel.

Soundtrack

Ok, so I've been trying to list out all the songs that would be on the soundtrack to the movie of my life (YUP i'm that big of a loser)... and I think I have a few good ones:


Fear by Jazmin Sullivan
Dear Life by Anthony Hamilton
Can You Be by ME! Yeaaaaa, I know.
Through The Fire by Chaka Khan
Trees by Marty
Damaged by Danity Kane, as dumb as that sounds it's true!
I'm Yours by Jason Mraz
Belief by Gavin Degraw
Keep Ya Head Up by Tupac (for the chorus)

8 so far, not all solid but steeeeeel. My picture over there is cuz I've been making lots of wishes lately :) But more importantly, What Do You Want For Christmas?


love you,
love, me

mariel.

Who Lived in a Shoe?

i have written this blog 8 times throughout my work day because i keep getting fone calls and the text erases :(

Basically, lost my voice, got it back, worked with N and YM finally, miss Utah and J, A, L and M, and really want to go to Dubai ASAP ;) ....i think.

FIDM is talking much less, R got a puppy! T too. I am stressed but not but i am but im really not WHOA i almost just fainted haha....

time to rest. ill write tonight!

love you,
love, me.

mariel.

Cried Me A River

I don't know what I'm thinking, not going to sleep right now! I'm always wanting to talk to nobody in particular, with nothing specific in mind. I think I just try to get away from the things that occupy my mind all day. Maybe 3 people read this... yet I keep it for the same reason that I don't keep locks on my journals. I think I want to be heard. This isn't necessarily a cry out to people, it may be me literally trying to be an open book... because I knowingly shut myself off from everyone. It's like, I have the hardest time trusting people but I want everyone to know everything about me. I feel like telling people everything would just be so emotionally draining that I'd be through before I started, so I just like to write as if every fact that makes up my life is already known. I think I'm a fairly simple person... but when I don't have songs for my complications to come out in, I get all mixed up and messy! I'm falling asleep.... I'm texting FIDM... opening the store in the morning and waiting for the DM to come in. I hope everyone's night went well and I hope tomorrow sheds new light on my crazy.

no tears on a monday!

love you,
love, me

mariel.